Hey guys!

So I'm back with an update of how I'm doing being all new and improved and stuff.

It's going really well which is quite shocking. I'm so used to trying and failing because I'm super lazy and hated myself which resulted in me getting more fat and depressed. But now things are changing and I'm loving every minute of it. I'm getting closer and closer to becoming a better person.

I'm starting to get better at make up which is pretty awesome! I'm finally becoming more confident with doing other people's make up as well not just my own. It also helps that I have a ridiculously supportive boyfriend and sister who are absolutely amazing and are always there to boost my confidence.

I'm also noticing things about myself that I haven't really noticed before. One particular thing is that I distance myself from people too easily and it really annoys me! Sometimes I get the feeling that I wouldn't be missed if I was in a room full of people that I know love me. I hate that feeling! But I'm trying to make it go away. I'm the most socially awkward person in the world and it's infuriating! But I'm slowly coming out of it: :)

We were at the pub last weekend to celebrate my boyfriend's birthday and pushed myself out of my bubble and it was awesome!!! I felt amazing going to bed after thinking "you did it you finally did it!" and yes I'm quoting Planet Of The Apes but it's such a fitting quote :)

Although I did see a tonne of girls that I used to go to school with and couldn't bring myself to say hi because I'm 3 stone heavier and not that confident seeing girls who knew me in my skinnier days.

That's the one problem I find with being in a long term committed relationship, you get comfortable and once you're comfortable you stop trying and that's what I've done. I've gained 3 stone (42 pounds) in weight in the past 3 years. It's time to lose it!

I'll update you guys soon with how things are going!